| (no subject) |
[Oct. 18th, 2006|02:24 am] |
so like yea..
i write alot of hand written journals like not everyday...i just have a bunch of notebooks with shit that ive written..
well i just found one from like last year to the date..ugh it made me sick...that i actually thought the things i was thinking...it pisses me off....
i even forgot about the things i wrote...iunno it brought back shit..that i didnt want to think about..
its been a year since i went to the art institute...its fuckin crazy....its been about a year for a lot of things..and its fuckin bugging me out...
i really have to get my shit together...
well im cleaning my room cause my head just isnt straight if its fuckin a shit hole...i need cigarettes too..
I WANT TO QUIT!!!! |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[May. 30th, 2006|05:34 am] |
my journal is private now cause i want some people out of my life. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[May. 22nd, 2006|02:00 pm] |
|
im doomed to be treated like shit by guys. endofstory. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Apr. 3rd, 2006|03:05 am] |
ive been away...
im back.. i guess
im annoyeed with alot of things...
and unhappy. more annoyed...though yea
im holding a grudge..thats how im dealing with it |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Mar. 24th, 2006|01:31 am] |
faggot
lalala
so sat and watched tom and andrew play black for like 2 hours it was maaaaaaaad fun let me tell ya
iunno i got arrested...that was neat.
uhm.
iunno mike was being really dumb.
i dont really care but it was just fucked up what he said.
but other wise..i like how things are going with me now.
im glad im out of that life |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Mar. 20th, 2006|11:40 pm] |
i like it when a kiss leaves you dizzy.
im drunk |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Mar. 7th, 2006|11:37 pm] |
aaaaaaaaand the good news is?
im over him.
and i love laura
im glad we stayed friends through out all the bullshit |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Mar. 7th, 2006|11:10 pm] |
ok so this weekend was fucking crazy
i cant really say anything about it cause people read this and dont wanna hear it sooo yeeeeeeeeeea
but i had so much fucking fun..ahhh
i feel really happpy. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Mar. 7th, 2006|10:52 pm] |
ahahaha
i love my life. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Mar. 5th, 2006|11:26 pm] |
people need to shut the fuck up
they dont know what they are talking about.
i hate this shit.
i find someone good.
and im a bitch for it.... |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 28th, 2006|11:32 am] |
sooooo
wow last night was just funny.
went to jimmys with tom and kyle...kevin and ian were there
then tori came over
we all smoked joints and drank things
played cards.
i think kyle bit my boob.
tom went missing for a very long time...
tori was gonna give me a ride home so we go out to the parking lot and fucking tom is in his car passed the fuck out.
so yea tori takes me to westville..
where i smoke with little chris aaaand ant and kevin..
it was fun.
i wasa really fucked up. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 26th, 2006|09:31 pm] |
im done with wanting him .
he is definitly no good for me.
i probably just miss the fact that i dont have someone
but having him wasnt worth it.
i deserve someone better who actually cares about themselves and me.
(and not to mention who wont fuck nasty ass girls.)
but yea im getting my shit together this week with school
i feeel good.
i feel free from him.
now im just pissed off at him.
he was an asshole to me. he really really was.
and i dont have to deal with it now.
i just wish i had realized and listened to everybody else before he could hurt me anymore than he already has.
im going to go do homework. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 26th, 2006|02:14 am] |
this weekend i drank alot of vodka.
and only threw up once!
but uh yea friday-
booooored
got really high in steves basement
uuuhm
went and smoked a joint with tom at work.
theeeeeen.
laura me and steve and dan went to swedesboro.
drunk drunk drunk drunk.
got laid
woke up at 9 still drunk.
now saturday.
ate pancakes.
got high with kevin
went home took a 3 hour nap
get woken up by tom and mitch.
sit and be bored
smoke start drinking
go to the bowling alley where i loooooose TO TOM.
then we go to rowan
where i continue to get very drunk.
all of a sudden they are like we re leaving.
and yea
i dont remember the drive home with tom
i think we stopped somewhere to puke. an then we like came into my house...all drunk and talked about shit.
it was coool.
my parents all came down like are you drunk?
it was funny.
well yea that was my fuckin weekend. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 23rd, 2006|10:34 pm] |
ooooooooo fuck.
blah blah blah
i dont even wanna think anymore |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 22nd, 2006|10:20 pm] |
And it was like
"hoooly shit
that sluts here..."
thats what happened.
i really really am dumb.
ew.
and
yea
im disappointed |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 22nd, 2006|12:14 pm] |
coool
i had a drream about him. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 21st, 2006|03:44 pm] |
i still want him...
???????? |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 19th, 2006|04:44 am] |
i just miss that sweet side he had to him.
damn |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Feb. 17th, 2006|04:46 am] |
im really drunk
i stoped at mike
i guess im still running on faith or hopethat he'll stilll come back...
i want him too
this is to hard
i dont know what to do.
i cant open up the way i opened up to him
i tried.
i hooked up with someone...and i dont know what to do.
im scared and drunk and in love.
and
hje doesnt want me
i feel soo fucking rejected
i thought i was fine
i thought he was an asshole
but i cant not talk to him i cant not see him.
it hurts.
it really fucking hurts
why wont he just be a man...
or something
i don tknow
im drunk.
im sad
im really fucking sad.
everything sucks
i cant get drunk any more
i think about him
and i want him and its bad cause he doesnt want me.
well i hope that slut is making him hap[py. |
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
starvedxsmart's journal